Tuesday, October 5, 2010 ♥
Today me and someone were talking about hospitals, deaths and such.
He was telling me about how he visited his Grandfather once, then later he passed away.
Then doesn't he turn to me and say "oh but you wouldn't understand."
This ticked me right off, I wouldn't understand?
To fuck I would.
Just because I don't boost it by telling people, letting everyone know.. doesn't mean i haven't been through it.
Five years ago, I visited my Grandma in the hospital/old age home while she had bruises on her face, legs and everywhere. Watching her be in so much pain it was unbearable. In so much pain she couldn't even feed, bath or use the washroom herself. Sad/disgusting but true. Being on so many pills that she could barely remember anyone's name. She died slowly and painfully before Christmas. I was there through it all.
Four years ago, I was there when my other Grandma got diagnosed with Cancer.
I was with her through everything; the heartbreak, the tears, the chemo, her being ashamed to go outside because she lost her hair.. everything. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I love my Grandma, more then anything in this world. I'm glad she's healthy, but the cancer is slowly creeping back.
Three years ago over the summer my Grandfather almost lost his life. Something broke in his body, I can't recall what it was, this lead to 2 serious heart attacks.. killing him, but the doctors revived him. He was in the ICU in Peterborough. coming so close to death that everyday was a miracle if he survived. He went through 2 major surgery's, both could of killed him instantly. Our family through this all was so strong, it was unbelievable. Aunts, Uncles from different states, all of my family coming together for support and love. I remember one night, sneaking out of the hotel I had to stay in for two months, walking to the hospital and just sitting with my Grandfather while he was asleep and in pain.. talking to him about anything and everything. I love him, he's my solider.. and the strongest figure in my eyes. He's my hero.
And that's when God gave me a miracle, he made him better. No one can even imagine the way I felt everyday, waking up in a hotel.. thinking that today might be his last.. worrying, getting sick to my stomach, but all the while still trying to support my family.
Two years ago, my best friend Dereck passed away from Cancer on March 5th. And yes I realize today is October 5th, Dereck is in my prays.. but he never leaves them. To see him go through so much pain, made me break down and cry on the spot. But me and all of my friends had to be strong for him, and his family. Dereck was such an amazing guy, and always will be.. I know he's up in heaven, cheering on the Toronto Maple leafs.
That summer, my Uncle Mark.. who was and still is my favorite Uncle.. was found barely alive in a gym sauna. He was drunk and was on something.. I can't get into great detail but I'm pretty sure who ever is reading this is getting a good idea of what I mean but something. The heat from the sauna made all of his inside organs fail and shut down. He was basically just a outside shell of a body when he was at the hospital. The doctors kept him alive though, his heart still beating.. but we all knew there was no hope of surviving. I'm crying as I'm writing this, he was a true fighter. I love him so so much it's crazy. Everyone says I look exactly like him, and this makes me both happy and sad. Happy to know I look like him, and sad because I know it kills my own mother just to look at me.. because I look like her twin brother. He passed away on July 22nd.. I watched him pass on. Seeing him die killed me inside, hugging him while his spirit slowly went to God was something I'll take with me to the grave.
So just because someone doesn't talk about every tragic thing that has happened in their life.. doesn't mean they haven't been through anything.
Melany Ann ♥
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